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Damn.
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Damn right.
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Mm.
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The sink's clogged again!
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Plumber is coming tomorrow!
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It's like a crime scene
in here.
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Written word not enough, huh?
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You want the full
audio experience?
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I need an actual human being,
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or someone is getting strangled
with a plunger.
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We still being sexy?
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Look, I've only got
a few weeks left.
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It's time to make this
an in-person thing.
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So let's do it.
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Tonight.
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For real, for real?
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What about your dad?
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Oh, no, no, no, no.
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He's--he's doing great.
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He's on his meds.
Model roommate.
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So it's time for him to see
a sock on the door knob
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and get gone.
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For real.
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Oh, I know that smile.
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That's the smile of a man
making plans
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for the finest
fishing exposition
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in the tristate area.
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That's a bunch of old timers
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swapping stories
in the back of a bait shop?
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Sure.
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If you wanna say
the Javits Convention Center
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is a bait shop.
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Oh, looks great, Dad.
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Yeah, tell me about it.
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I will not,
'cause you're coming.
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Sounds great, Dad.
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Good.
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We'll go after your work.
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Wait, the expo's tonight?
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Is that a problem?
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Mm.
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What did you do that for?
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Just making sure you're real.
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Only way to know for sure
is to give me a scalp massage.
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- Dad's back!
- Hi, everybody.
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Hi, guys.
You're darn right, Dad's back.
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- Yeah.
- I'm here.
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This morning,
my daughter said that
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when I'm tired,
I look like a sad racoon.
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So do you think I can trade her
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for a new car?
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A very nice new car.
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Good.
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Thank you.
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Where do you get
your motivation?
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Good morning.
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I have the clinical
trial prospectus.
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Thank you.
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Well, Dana, this is Dr. Wilder.
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And Dr. Wilder, this is Dana,
my ASL teacher.
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Oh, yeah.
No, I got that one.
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Crystal clear.
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♪ It's a brand new
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Please give me
something good.
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And this one's
the quarterly budget template.
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Another? How many are there?
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It's quarterly, so four.
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Sandra Fall, I hate forms.
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Forms never helped anyone.
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Well, this one literally
funds the hospital.
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If I'm not looking
into a patient's eyes,
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if I'm not looking
into the underlying roots
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of their issues, then--
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Then you can do your
actual job, sign these forms,
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and end this conversation.
- I had a question.
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Is there a form that fires you?
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You keep shredding it
against my wishes.
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Sign.
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The ICU needs
a substitute attending?
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Mm-hmm.
Dr. Slavin broke her ankle.
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She's out today.
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All right. So today I am not
your boss's boss's boss.
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I am just simply your boss.
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So I'm here for you.
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Let's do some actual medicine.
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Who's with me?
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You look chipper.
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Do I?
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Well, it is never a bad day
to have a good day,
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my enchanting chairwoman.
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Charmed and unnerved.
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Look, we have a problem outside.
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- Okay.
- An unhoused gentleman
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who's facing some challenges
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has created
an untenable environment.
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I don't--I don't follow.
What are you saying?
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There's a crazy
homeless guy out front.
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He's scaring our patients.
I need him gone.
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Well, that was a touching
and heartfelt alternate way
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of putting that.
Thank you.
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I'm suggesting
you provide him
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with appropriate care
and services.
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That is far away
from our entrance.
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- Thank you, Ignatius.
- You got it.
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Do not go inside!
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Yes. Yes.
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Come out.
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Get away from them.
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Stop. Stop.
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They will kill you!
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Hey, there. Hey.
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Got a little something here
that might brighten your day.
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Evil. Evil people.
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Okay. Sure. Sure.
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You're one of them.
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Actually, I'm just a guy
with some socks.
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Yeah, yeah.
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Want a pair?
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Yeah. Go ahead. Take a pair.
It's cold out here.
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Yeah, you're good. Yeah.
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I got a whole bag
full of socks here.
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I got sweaters.
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What you say
you and I take this
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wherever you're camping out
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and we stash
the whole bag there?
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I got a place
just over there.
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Oh, over here under
the scaffolding?
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Yeah. I've seen people there.
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No.
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Penthouse.
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Penthouse?
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Right on.
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Oh, that is quite
the decision.
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- Tell me about it.
- Right.
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So you can either hang out
with a bunch of AARP guys
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at a literal fish show,
or you can hook up
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with a beautiful, available,
interested woman.
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Yeah.
I can see why you're torn.
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It's not that easy,
all right?
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All I've ever wanted
was my family back.
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And now that I have it--
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Young woman found
down in Morandi Park.
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Unresponsive.
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Respirations
and heart rate slow.
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Vanessa.
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Vanessa?
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Pupils are pinpoint, nonreactive.
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Narcotics overdose.
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I need a second IV.
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- O-2 sats are low.
- On it.
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Saturation 88%.
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I need an intubation tray
with a seven.
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Pushing Narcan.
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Quick pop quiz.
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This is from a 65-year-old man
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who is hypertensive
and unconscious.
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Do you shock this rhythm?
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No.
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Yes.
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All right.
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So you just flip through
these four screens,
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and then you pull down
this tab right here.
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And, oh, the M key
does not work.
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So we just use a little "rn"
right next to each other.
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Someone's gotta build
a better system.
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Oh.
What if that's someone is you?
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When you approach a patient
about hospice,
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you don't talk
about end-of-life care.
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You just talk about life care.
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This is just
the next stage of it.
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- It's Duane Roberts.
- All right.
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This is it.
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You're up.
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BP 60 over 49.
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Absent breath sounds
on the left.
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Left heart's straining EKG.
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Tension pneumo.
Need a left-sided chest tube.
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VAN runs under the rib.
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BP rising.
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Sats normalizing.
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It worked.
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That's good work.
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Decision, coordination,
execution, all excellent.
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Mika, you okay?
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It used to be cleaner.
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Oh, no, no.
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This is, uh--this is amazing.
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Wow.
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Look at this place.
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Look at that view.
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Oh, someone's a gamer, huh?
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Uh, coder.
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Bitcoin.
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Cooler.
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Do you want one?
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Yeah. Yeah. Thank you.
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I'll take one of those.
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Cheers.
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So, hey, just curious.
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Why did you start hanging out
in front of New Amsterdam?
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I'm warning people.
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Warning people about what?
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Bad things happen
in that place.
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They're evil. They hurt people.
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They do experiments
on young children.
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They use lightning,
and they rip out their brains.
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They tie them down with rubber.
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And it's tight.
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No! It burns.
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And they zap.
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They zap and zap and zap.
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They...
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I'm saving those kids.
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Tied down with rubber?
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Lightning?
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Don't--don't try to deny it.
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No, no, I'm not.
That--that is how they
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used to do electroshock therapy
40 years ago.
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Harlan, when you were a kid,
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were you a patient
at New Amsterdam?
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Oh...
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Hey, how you doing?
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How does it freaking look?
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It's the Narcan.
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You're in withdrawal
from the heroin.
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Well, it feels like ants
are crawling out of my body.
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So--oh, Jesus.
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All right. Okay.
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We're gonna get you
through this.
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- Stop. Get off.
- What?
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- Stop gloating, all right?
- I'm not gloating.
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- Please just leave.
- Okay, you really--
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Ugh. Jesus.
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All right.
You know what, Vanessa?
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You tried to kill yourself.
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Whether you realize it or not,
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that is what you tried to do.
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And I'm gonna be here for you, okay?
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Yeah. Well, you know what?
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Being nice to me now
is not gonna change the fact
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that Mom died hating you.
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00:14:50,367 --> 00:14:52,848
That's not true.
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Yes, it is.
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Yeah, it is, actually.
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Thanks to me, she wrote you
a letter a few years ago,
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an apology, you know,
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for being
such a terrible mother.
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I threw it away.
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Why would you do that?
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Answer me.
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Why would you do that?
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Because you didn't deserve
that, Lauren!
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God, she was so vulnerable
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when she came to me
with that letter.
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She was, like, crying
and asking me
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if I thought you'd ever
forgive her.
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She thought
you threw it in her face.
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So yes, Lauren. Yes.
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I'm pretty sure
she died hating you.
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You know what?
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You really are pathetic,
aren't you?
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And there she is. You see,
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this is who you really are.
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How many times
do I have to tell you?
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I'm done with it!
- Selfish bitch!
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- I'm done with being there!
- I can't stand
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the condescending bitch
you've become.
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Vanessa? Vanessa? Vanessa?
269
00:15:49,992 --> 00:15:52,038
I need help in here!
270
00:15:52,038 --> 00:15:53,387
Okay, okay, okay.
271
00:15:53,387 --> 00:15:54,954
Okay, okay. Okay.
272
00:15:59,001 --> 00:16:01,003
- Chest, it hurts.
- What do you got?
273
00:16:01,003 --> 00:16:02,918
Hypertensive,
diaphoretic, tachy.
274
00:16:02,918 --> 00:16:04,659
Probably narcotic withdrawal.
275
00:16:04,659 --> 00:16:06,487
- My chest.
- Vanessa, I know it hurts,
276
00:16:06,487 --> 00:16:08,010
but we need you to stay still, okay?
277
00:16:08,010 --> 00:16:10,012
Start an Esmolol drip.
278
00:16:10,012 --> 00:16:12,580
- TOX screen?
- The usual polypharmacy.
279
00:16:12,580 --> 00:16:15,104
Oxy, meth, cocaine,
marijuana, you name it.
280
00:16:15,104 --> 00:16:16,540
Was she acting erratically?
281
00:16:16,540 --> 00:16:20,675
She was outta control,
screaming the most hateful--
282
00:16:20,675 --> 00:16:22,024
an adrenergic storm.
283
00:16:22,024 --> 00:16:23,895
From acute cocaine toxicity.
284
00:16:23,895 --> 00:16:25,810
Her coronary artery
is spasming.
285
00:16:25,810 --> 00:16:27,377
I didn't see it. I--
286
00:16:27,377 --> 00:16:29,205
We gotta get her
to a cath lab now.
287
00:16:29,205 --> 00:16:30,467
The clues
were right in front of me,
288
00:16:30,467 --> 00:16:31,729
but why didn't I see it?
289
00:16:31,729 --> 00:16:33,818
With family, we never see it.
290
00:16:33,818 --> 00:16:36,038
Let's go.
291
00:16:36,038 --> 00:16:37,561
Straight. Straight. This way.
292
00:16:42,784 --> 00:16:43,915
Hey.
293
00:16:43,915 --> 00:16:45,917
- Hey.
- You okay?
294
00:16:45,917 --> 00:16:48,050
Uh, yeah,
it was just allergies.
295
00:16:48,050 --> 00:16:52,054
It didn't look
like allergies.
296
00:16:52,054 --> 00:16:53,577
Looked like a panic attack.
297
00:16:53,577 --> 00:16:55,666
Oh, no. Not at all.
298
00:16:55,666 --> 00:16:57,712
I mean, I've been here a month,
and Elliot's code
299
00:16:57,712 --> 00:16:59,192
isn't one of the top ten
most intense things
300
00:16:59,192 --> 00:17:00,889
that have happened all week.
301
00:17:00,889 --> 00:17:02,543
Who's Elliot?
302
00:17:02,543 --> 00:17:04,458
The--the patient.
The code we just ran.
303
00:17:05,894 --> 00:17:08,549
No, Mika.
That was Duane.
304
00:17:09,811 --> 00:17:11,769
Who's Elliot?
305
00:17:11,769 --> 00:17:13,293
Um...
306
00:17:16,992 --> 00:17:19,951
My first patient here.
307
00:17:19,951 --> 00:17:21,779
You never forget your first, right?
308
00:17:21,779 --> 00:17:23,172
No.
309
00:17:23,172 --> 00:17:25,218
Especially if they die.
310
00:17:30,136 --> 00:17:32,051
How did you know that?
311
00:17:32,051 --> 00:17:35,141
'Cause I've stood
where you're standing.
312
00:17:35,141 --> 00:17:38,013
Patients die, Mika,
no matter what you do,
313
00:17:38,013 --> 00:17:39,319
no matter how good you are,
314
00:17:39,319 --> 00:17:42,017
and I've been watching you
on the floor.
315
00:17:42,017 --> 00:17:44,802
You're a really good doctor.
316
00:17:44,802 --> 00:17:48,676
No.
317
00:17:48,676 --> 00:17:50,286
I'm an excellent doctor.
318
00:17:50,286 --> 00:17:52,593
Elliot had a triple A
that ruptured.
319
00:17:52,593 --> 00:17:54,508
That's one of the hardest
procedures we do,
320
00:17:54,508 --> 00:17:57,119
and I ran that code flawlessly.
321
00:18:03,169 --> 00:18:05,649
And then I went home
for the night,
322
00:18:05,649 --> 00:18:07,651
and he died
323
00:18:07,651 --> 00:18:10,306
while I was watching
a reality cooking show
324
00:18:10,306 --> 00:18:12,482
and eating a takeaway salad.
325
00:18:14,789 --> 00:18:17,444
I could have saved him.
326
00:18:17,444 --> 00:18:20,099
He was my patient,
and I left him to die.
327
00:18:25,626 --> 00:18:30,109
They experimented on me
with lightning.
328
00:18:31,893 --> 00:18:33,024
It hurt.
329
00:18:33,024 --> 00:18:35,636
Yeah, I bet.
330
00:18:35,636 --> 00:18:37,333
Yeah, a lot of hospitals
back then used
331
00:18:37,333 --> 00:18:40,336
a very crude version
of electroshock,
332
00:18:40,336 --> 00:18:42,817
and they way overmedicated.
333
00:18:42,817 --> 00:18:44,384
Just so many pills.
334
00:18:44,384 --> 00:18:45,863
You could barely even move.
335
00:18:50,390 --> 00:18:52,566
It's like being in a cage.
336
00:18:54,394 --> 00:18:56,570
A cage you can't see.
337
00:19:01,749 --> 00:19:03,751
You know, Harlan,
338
00:19:03,751 --> 00:19:05,883
we don't do that anymore.
339
00:19:05,883 --> 00:19:08,103
No, we don't.
340
00:19:08,103 --> 00:19:09,539
And I have helped schizophrenics
341
00:19:09,539 --> 00:19:12,803
without pills, without shocks.
342
00:19:12,803 --> 00:19:14,457
None of it.
343
00:19:14,457 --> 00:19:15,284
Really?
344
00:19:15,284 --> 00:19:17,721
Yeah, really.
345
00:19:17,721 --> 00:19:20,507
If you come with me
to my office today,
346
00:19:20,507 --> 00:19:22,639
I will get you
back on your feet.
347
00:19:28,079 --> 00:19:29,124
It doesn't believe you.
348
00:19:29,124 --> 00:19:30,386
The voice?
349
00:19:30,386 --> 00:19:31,909
- Mm...
- Yeah. That's okay.
350
00:19:31,909 --> 00:19:33,302
That's okay. That's okay.
351
00:19:33,302 --> 00:19:36,610
But all you have to do
is let me try,
352
00:19:36,610 --> 00:19:38,699
and you will see
that I can help you.
353
00:19:38,699 --> 00:19:40,091
I mean, Harlan, look
at what you've accomplished.
354
00:19:40,091 --> 00:19:41,441
Look at this.
355
00:19:41,441 --> 00:19:43,312
You were doing really well
for a very long time.
356
00:19:43,312 --> 00:19:44,748
Stop talking.
357
00:19:44,748 --> 00:19:46,750
Look, going to the hospital,
that's new, right?
358
00:19:46,750 --> 00:19:48,622
Shut up!
359
00:19:50,145 --> 00:19:51,364
Did something happen
recently?
360
00:19:51,364 --> 00:19:52,365
Something--
- Get out.
361
00:19:52,365 --> 00:19:54,236
Get outta here now!
362
00:19:54,236 --> 00:19:56,064
Get outta here right now.
- Okay.
363
00:19:56,064 --> 00:19:57,021
No hospitals!
364
00:19:57,021 --> 00:19:58,240
No doctors!
365
00:19:58,240 --> 00:19:59,459
No, no, no!
366
00:19:59,459 --> 00:20:00,286
No!
367
00:23:40,027 --> 00:23:43,900
Morandi Park.
368
00:23:43,900 --> 00:23:45,467
I don't--
369
00:23:45,467 --> 00:23:48,557
Vanessa lives
on the Upper West Side.
370
00:23:48,557 --> 00:23:52,213
So do all of her friends.
371
00:23:52,213 --> 00:23:56,478
Yet she OD'd in Morandi Park...
372
00:23:56,478 --> 00:23:59,438
directly across the street
from this hospital.
373
00:24:04,834 --> 00:24:07,446
She knew exactly
where they'd bring her.
374
00:24:11,275 --> 00:24:13,930
She knew that I'd be the one
to see her like this.
375
00:24:17,891 --> 00:24:19,849
She chose this.
376
00:24:23,505 --> 00:24:25,725
That's how much she hates me.
377
00:24:25,725 --> 00:24:26,987
Well, she was coked
out of her mind.
378
00:24:26,987 --> 00:24:29,598
It wasn't the coke.
379
00:24:29,598 --> 00:24:31,861
She meant what she said,
every last word of it.
380
00:24:31,861 --> 00:24:33,602
She meant it.
381
00:24:36,126 --> 00:24:38,520
And why shouldn't she hate me?
382
00:24:41,305 --> 00:24:42,393
I left her.
383
00:24:42,393 --> 00:24:44,134
Lauren...
384
00:24:46,876 --> 00:24:49,096
You wanna know
the worst part?
385
00:24:50,793 --> 00:24:54,449
If she never woke up,
386
00:24:54,449 --> 00:24:57,496
I think a part of me
would be relieved.
387
00:25:03,632 --> 00:25:06,635
Why didn't I help her?
388
00:25:08,811 --> 00:25:13,076
You know why
better than anyone.
389
00:25:13,076 --> 00:25:14,861
An addict has to want help.
390
00:25:14,861 --> 00:25:16,732
I have to try.
I have to try.
391
00:25:16,732 --> 00:25:19,039
I can't--I can't just stand by
and do nothing.
392
00:25:19,039 --> 00:25:20,780
- No, you--
- No, Floyd, I'm not just gonna
393
00:25:20,780 --> 00:25:23,522
walk away
and just watch her die.
394
00:25:25,524 --> 00:25:27,656
This time I'm staying.
395
00:25:37,013 --> 00:25:38,188
Get out.
396
00:25:38,188 --> 00:25:39,363
Don't you spy on me.
- I'm not.
397
00:25:39,363 --> 00:25:41,017
- Don't you spy.
- 48 floors.
398
00:25:41,017 --> 00:25:42,279
It just--it takes a minute.
399
00:25:42,279 --> 00:25:45,456
Damn thing. Hurry up.
Hurry up.
400
00:25:47,981 --> 00:25:50,679
Hey, the protein shakes,
you like 'em?
401
00:25:50,679 --> 00:25:51,854
They good?
402
00:25:53,595 --> 00:25:54,683
Yeah.
403
00:25:56,380 --> 00:25:57,599
Did you start drinking them
404
00:25:57,599 --> 00:25:59,166
right before
you started warning people
405
00:25:59,166 --> 00:26:00,428
out in front of the hospital?
406
00:26:02,473 --> 00:26:03,692
What?
407
00:26:10,133 --> 00:26:13,615
The M key doesn't work.
Remember?
408
00:26:13,615 --> 00:26:15,661
Gotta just use "rn."
409
00:26:15,661 --> 00:26:16,966
Thanks.
410
00:26:18,881 --> 00:26:20,970
Mika, you left your patient
'cause your shift was over.
411
00:26:22,624 --> 00:26:24,408
Can we not talk about this?
412
00:26:24,408 --> 00:26:27,107
Well, I can't let you
see patients until we do.
413
00:26:30,545 --> 00:26:31,981
Fine.
414
00:26:35,115 --> 00:26:37,639
I could have stayed.
415
00:26:37,639 --> 00:26:39,598
I chose to leave.
416
00:26:39,598 --> 00:26:43,253
When you're not on call,
do you ever sleep here?
417
00:26:43,253 --> 00:26:44,341
We all grab naps sometimes.
418
00:26:44,341 --> 00:26:46,866
That's not what I meant.
419
00:26:46,866 --> 00:26:48,128
How often do you go home?
420
00:26:48,128 --> 00:26:50,957
It depends.
421
00:26:50,957 --> 00:26:53,350
Mika, I'm just asking you,
422
00:26:53,350 --> 00:26:55,178
when was the last time
that you got
423
00:26:55,178 --> 00:26:58,965
a full night's sleep
in your own bed?
424
00:27:07,582 --> 00:27:09,671
The night Elliot died.
425
00:27:13,109 --> 00:27:15,503
That was over a month ago.
426
00:27:16,809 --> 00:27:19,681
Mika, you have to go home.
427
00:27:19,681 --> 00:27:21,814
It's not a request.
428
00:27:21,814 --> 00:27:24,294
I don't think you're allowed
to dictate where I sleep,
429
00:27:24,294 --> 00:27:26,296
and my performance
isn't a problem.
430
00:27:26,296 --> 00:27:29,343
So thank you for your concern, truly.
431
00:27:29,343 --> 00:27:32,520
But I'm not going anywhere.
432
00:27:50,277 --> 00:27:52,018
You want to take the job.
433
00:27:53,193 --> 00:27:54,324
I have to.
434
00:27:54,324 --> 00:27:55,804
It's too important.
435
00:27:55,804 --> 00:27:58,372
I won't leave you in the lurch.
436
00:27:58,372 --> 00:27:59,765
I'll help with the transition.
437
00:27:59,765 --> 00:28:02,289
I will handle the interviews
for my replacement.
438
00:28:03,290 --> 00:28:06,380
Can we talk alone?
439
00:28:10,863 --> 00:28:12,429
I'll be right outside.
440
00:30:15,857 --> 00:30:18,077
Hey, hey.
I have good news.
441
00:30:18,077 --> 00:30:19,948
You dealt with the homeless--
unhoused gentleman?
442
00:30:19,948 --> 00:30:21,471
Yes. His name is Harlan,
443
00:30:21,471 --> 00:30:23,212
and I did help him indeed.
444
00:30:23,212 --> 00:30:26,433
It turns out the problem
was protein shakes.
445
00:30:26,433 --> 00:30:28,739
It didn't look like
the problem was protein shakes.
446
00:30:28,739 --> 00:30:29,784
Well, upon further inspection,
447
00:30:29,784 --> 00:30:31,133
they were all he was eating,
448
00:30:31,133 --> 00:30:33,744
which led to a niacin
deficiency, AKA pellagra,
449
00:30:33,744 --> 00:30:35,616
which I then treated
with a multivitamin.
450
00:30:35,616 --> 00:30:37,096
So he wasn't schizophrenic,
451
00:30:37,096 --> 00:30:38,793
he just needed
Flintstone pills?
452
00:30:38,793 --> 00:30:40,360
He is still schizophrenic,
453
00:30:40,360 --> 00:30:42,841
just minus the aggressive
behavior, the irritability,
454
00:30:42,841 --> 00:30:43,972
and the angry voices
in his head.
455
00:30:43,972 --> 00:30:45,539
That was all the pellagra.
456
00:30:45,539 --> 00:30:48,020
As long as sanity has
prevailed at our front door,
457
00:30:48,020 --> 00:30:49,630
I'm happy.
- Yeah.
458
00:30:49,630 --> 00:30:51,066
Yeah.
Well, you know, about that.
459
00:30:51,066 --> 00:30:52,894
Do you get your vitamins?
460
00:30:52,894 --> 00:30:54,504
There's 13 essential ones.
461
00:30:54,504 --> 00:30:56,637
They're good for your bones,
your immune system.
462
00:30:56,637 --> 00:30:57,856
This will save your life.
463
00:30:57,856 --> 00:30:59,814
I told you to clear
the front door.
464
00:30:59,814 --> 00:31:01,772
No. No, you told me to help.
465
00:31:01,772 --> 00:31:03,470
- Hey, Iggy!
- And I did.
466
00:31:03,470 --> 00:31:04,906
- Hey!
- Hey, doing great.
467
00:31:04,906 --> 00:31:06,865
Excuse me.
Do you get your vitamins?
468
00:31:06,865 --> 00:31:08,605
Vitamins are really good
for you.
469
00:31:15,395 --> 00:31:16,439
You're still here.
470
00:31:17,701 --> 00:31:18,789
Dr. Goodwin.
471
00:31:18,789 --> 00:31:20,182
You gotta go.
472
00:31:21,662 --> 00:31:23,707
Stay, and you're a bad doctor.
473
00:31:25,971 --> 00:31:27,886
Are you asking me
to care less?
474
00:31:27,886 --> 00:31:30,758
No. If anything,
I'm asking you to care more.
475
00:31:32,368 --> 00:31:34,980
The hardest part of caring
is the part you're not doing.
476
00:31:34,980 --> 00:31:37,852
Letting go.
- Giving up is not caring.
477
00:31:39,549 --> 00:31:41,987
Elliot's gone.
478
00:31:41,987 --> 00:31:43,858
If you worked
1,000 hours straight,
479
00:31:43,858 --> 00:31:45,207
it wouldn't bring him back.
480
00:31:45,207 --> 00:31:46,774
You can't undo it.
- Stop.
481
00:31:46,774 --> 00:31:49,951
Sometimes people go,
482
00:31:49,951 --> 00:31:51,561
and wanting them to stay,
483
00:31:51,561 --> 00:31:53,650
fighting, clinging,
484
00:31:53,650 --> 00:31:55,914
that's for you.
485
00:31:57,567 --> 00:31:58,960
And you going home,
486
00:31:58,960 --> 00:32:01,441
that's for the person
who needs you next.
487
00:32:10,580 --> 00:32:12,017
Can I walk you out?
488
00:32:13,540 --> 00:32:14,671
Yeah.
489
00:32:24,594 --> 00:32:25,856
Is she--
490
00:32:25,856 --> 00:32:28,381
Vanessa's awake,
491
00:32:28,381 --> 00:32:30,078
and she's asking for you.
492
00:32:33,473 --> 00:32:35,344
You don't have to go.
493
00:32:35,344 --> 00:32:37,956
Don't keep doing this
to yourself.
494
00:32:39,435 --> 00:32:41,960
She's family.
495
00:32:41,960 --> 00:32:44,049
You don't turn your back
on that.
496
00:32:44,049 --> 00:32:47,095
Well, I thought that too.
497
00:32:47,095 --> 00:32:50,707
With my dad when I was trying
to get into his life,
498
00:32:50,707 --> 00:32:54,059
I made so many excuses for him.
499
00:32:54,059 --> 00:32:58,367
I said I wasn't gonna be
the one who turned away,
500
00:32:58,367 --> 00:33:00,979
but my friend told me
that was crap.
501
00:33:02,719 --> 00:33:04,286
It's not the same.
502
00:33:04,286 --> 00:33:09,857
You said that change won't
happen unless you demand it.
503
00:33:11,076 --> 00:33:14,862
But what if it doesn't?
504
00:33:14,862 --> 00:33:18,344
What if she needs me,
and I'm not there?
505
00:33:20,607 --> 00:33:22,609
What if she dies?
506
00:33:24,872 --> 00:33:27,614
I don't know how to help her.
507
00:33:30,965 --> 00:33:32,967
I don't know how--
508
00:33:32,967 --> 00:33:34,229
I don't know how to help her.
509
00:33:34,229 --> 00:33:36,536
Yes, you do. Yes, you do.
510
00:33:36,536 --> 00:33:39,713
You've already done it once
when you were 18.
511
00:33:39,713 --> 00:33:41,367
No.
512
00:33:43,282 --> 00:33:44,674
That was selfish.
513
00:33:44,674 --> 00:33:46,285
You know, me leaving her,
514
00:33:46,285 --> 00:33:48,461
that put that needle
in her arm.
515
00:33:48,461 --> 00:33:50,071
Listen.
516
00:33:50,071 --> 00:33:53,466
If you hadn't left,
you'd be in a bed next to her.
517
00:33:53,466 --> 00:33:55,337
All right?
She has someone alive
518
00:33:55,337 --> 00:34:00,473
to help her
because you left, right?
519
00:34:02,649 --> 00:34:07,001
You spent most of your life
wishing you can change things.
520
00:34:07,001 --> 00:34:08,785
But you know what?
521
00:34:10,918 --> 00:34:13,399
It wasn't the worst thing
you ever did.
522
00:34:13,399 --> 00:34:15,705
It was the best.
523
00:34:15,705 --> 00:34:19,666
And I think Vanessa needs you
to do it again.
524
00:34:39,903 --> 00:34:42,515
She's not coming?
525
00:34:42,515 --> 00:34:43,646
No.
526
00:34:45,822 --> 00:34:47,607
But she wanted me
to give you this.
527
00:34:51,306 --> 00:34:53,352
That's where she'll be.
528
00:35:03,710 --> 00:35:05,668
Hey, Pops.
Give me a minute to change,
529
00:35:05,668 --> 00:35:08,932
and we can hit that tri--
530
00:35:10,456 --> 00:35:12,066
What's happening?
531
00:35:12,066 --> 00:35:14,155
I'm moving out.
532
00:35:15,939 --> 00:35:17,854
Okay. If you're...
533
00:35:17,854 --> 00:35:19,117
feeling anxious
about something,
534
00:35:19,117 --> 00:35:21,293
we can work through it.
- Son, I'm good.
535
00:35:22,772 --> 00:35:23,947
Have a seat.
536
00:35:31,303 --> 00:35:34,088
This may be hard
for you to hear,
537
00:35:34,088 --> 00:35:35,829
but I read all your texts.
538
00:35:35,829 --> 00:35:37,222
- Pops!
- Easy.
539
00:35:37,222 --> 00:35:39,093
It was an accident.
540
00:35:39,093 --> 00:35:40,790
I was checking out vendors
for the expo.
541
00:35:40,790 --> 00:35:42,923
And when I closed the browser,
542
00:35:42,923 --> 00:35:45,926
your message app
was all over the screen.
543
00:35:45,926 --> 00:35:48,494
The thread
with this Gabrielle girl.
544
00:35:49,190 --> 00:35:51,105
I tried not to look,
but those pictures--
545
00:35:51,105 --> 00:35:52,193
Oh, my God.
546
00:35:52,193 --> 00:35:53,934
Calm down. I didn't linger,
547
00:35:53,934 --> 00:35:55,414
but I got enough to know
548
00:35:55,414 --> 00:35:58,025
that you are about to make
the wrong call.
549
00:35:58,025 --> 00:35:59,679
Oh, no, no, no, no.
550
00:35:59,679 --> 00:36:03,900
Pops, look,
you are not in the way.
551
00:36:03,900 --> 00:36:06,599
This isn't pity.
552
00:36:06,599 --> 00:36:08,601
I want to pick you.
553
00:36:08,601 --> 00:36:10,037
I don't know
if I got the right
554
00:36:10,037 --> 00:36:14,607
to give you fatherly advice,
but if I did,
555
00:36:14,607 --> 00:36:16,652
I'd say the most important
thing I've learned
556
00:36:16,652 --> 00:36:19,438
is you go for the girl.
557
00:36:26,706 --> 00:36:28,490
No, Pops. Pops, wait.
558
00:36:28,490 --> 00:36:29,926
Just...
559
00:36:35,236 --> 00:36:39,501
I'm afraid
I won't see you again.
560
00:36:39,501 --> 00:36:45,551
Son, the first time I left,
that was selfish.
561
00:36:45,551 --> 00:36:49,816
This time,
I'm doing it for you.
562
00:36:56,518 --> 00:36:58,825
Hello.
563
00:36:58,825 --> 00:37:00,914
So is anybody in the mood
564
00:37:00,914 --> 00:37:04,483
for a sweeping
romantic gesture?
565
00:37:04,483 --> 00:37:09,009
This Cab is both robust
and impertinent,
566
00:37:09,009 --> 00:37:10,663
much like myself.
567
00:37:10,663 --> 00:37:12,404
Iggy in a bottle.
568
00:37:16,321 --> 00:37:19,367
Hey.
- Hey.
569
00:37:19,367 --> 00:37:21,282
So I know last night
was a lot,
570
00:37:21,282 --> 00:37:24,720
um, but it was wonderful.
571
00:37:24,720 --> 00:37:27,506
Maybe things haven't changed
that much.
572
00:37:27,506 --> 00:37:30,465
Yeah, our good parts
are still good.
573
00:37:32,119 --> 00:37:34,904
But what's it say
about the bad parts?
574
00:37:34,904 --> 00:37:37,298
I don't know.
575
00:37:37,298 --> 00:37:40,040
You know, we'll find out.
576
00:37:40,040 --> 00:37:42,216
Maybe--maybe they're better.
577
00:37:43,739 --> 00:37:46,176
Maybe's not an answer.
578
00:37:46,786 --> 00:37:50,703
We can't just blindly hope
that our problems
579
00:37:50,703 --> 00:37:52,313
have magically solved themselves.
580
00:37:52,313 --> 00:37:53,619
I don't think that, Martin.
581
00:37:53,619 --> 00:37:56,404
I'm not--I'm not waiting
582
00:37:56,404 --> 00:37:58,058
for them to magically
solve themselves.
583
00:37:58,058 --> 00:38:00,495
I'm--I'm working at changing.
584
00:38:00,495 --> 00:38:02,323
I have changed.
You've seen it.
585
00:38:02,323 --> 00:38:03,977
- Mm-hmm.
- And I'm not just talking
586
00:38:03,977 --> 00:38:05,239
about the physical,
the outside.
587
00:38:05,239 --> 00:38:06,240
You know,
I'm talking about inside.
588
00:38:06,240 --> 00:38:07,720
I feel different.
589
00:38:07,720 --> 00:38:09,069
I'm different.
590
00:38:09,069 --> 00:38:12,115
Iggy, so am I.
591
00:38:19,993 --> 00:38:21,690
Martin, I love you.
592
00:38:23,083 --> 00:38:25,346
I'm in love with you.
593
00:38:26,434 --> 00:38:31,918
I love you so much...
594
00:38:33,702 --> 00:38:36,575
But we're not those people anymore.
595
00:38:47,499 --> 00:38:49,849
It's time to finalize
the divorce.
596
00:39:59,614 --> 00:40:02,965
♪ They say
it's a matter of time ♪
597
00:40:02,965 --> 00:40:06,360
♪ A thousand days
and the sun won't shine ♪
598
00:40:06,360 --> 00:40:11,104
♪ Before I come back to you
599
00:40:11,104 --> 00:40:13,236
♪ And I'm happy
600
00:40:13,236 --> 00:40:16,239
♪ Nothing's going to stop me
601
00:40:16,239 --> 00:40:19,025
♪ I'm making my way home
602
00:40:19,025 --> 00:40:22,245
♪ I'm making my way
603
00:40:24,378 --> 00:40:27,425
♪ For your love,
I will go far ♪
604
00:40:27,425 --> 00:40:30,384
♪ I wanna be
wherever you are ♪
605
00:40:30,384 --> 00:40:36,216
♪ I know I'm coming back
for you ♪
606
00:40:36,216 --> 00:40:37,870
♪ I'm happy
607
00:40:37,870 --> 00:40:40,525
♪ Nothing's going to stop me
608
00:40:40,525 --> 00:40:43,615
♪ I'm making my way home
609
00:40:43,615 --> 00:40:47,053
♪ I'm making my way
610
00:40:48,228 --> 00:40:50,012
♪ I go solo
611
00:40:50,012 --> 00:40:53,146
♪ Oh, I go solo
612
00:40:53,146 --> 00:40:56,236
♪ I'm making my way home
613
00:40:56,236 --> 00:40:58,891
♪ I'm making my way
614
00:41:20,739 --> 00:41:23,611
Dr. Helen in her popular
television program.
615
00:41:23,611 --> 00:41:25,308
She stepped out
of the limelight
616
00:41:25,308 --> 00:41:29,095
to pursue oncology research
and to see patients full time.
617
00:41:29,095 --> 00:41:32,098
Dr. Sharpe, tell us about
your latest research.
618
00:41:32,098 --> 00:41:34,100
It also helps reduce pain.
619
00:41:34,100 --> 00:41:36,450
It decreases...
620
00:41:36,450 --> 00:41:38,539
It boosts the immune system.
621
00:41:38,539 --> 00:41:40,976
And the results
are truly astounding.
622
00:41:40,976 --> 00:41:42,412
It's something
we've been practicing
623
00:41:42,412 --> 00:41:43,762
for many years now.
624
00:41:43,762 --> 00:41:45,764
Dr. Helen Sharpe is here
in New York City
625
00:41:45,764 --> 00:41:48,549
representing the NHS's fight
against cancer.
626
00:41:48,549 --> 00:41:50,464
♪ I'll make my way